I cannot get a break in life

Dear Pastor,

I don't even know how to start. I have been going thought a lot lately. I feel so stressed and depressed. I also feel like I am a failure and a loner. I have no one to talk to and sometimes I feel suicidal. I will soon be 28 years old and I haven't achieved much in life. I have two children and I can hardly provide for them. My first child doesn't have a father. I was raped in 2014 and my life went downhill. The trauma has affected me until today. I asked God 'why me?' My daughter's father is abusive, so I have to run from him. I try my best to hustle and do a little buying and selling of beauty and hygienic products, but I was robbed last year of my stock, money and I lost all of my documents. I have to start over but it is rough. I have started over 10 businesses and they all failed. Sometimes I wonder if it is because of my negative family. Everytime I start a business, they say it is not going to work. It is like they put a curse on me, but I am not going to give up. I just wish I could get a little start to get some goods for my business. I am a very hard-working person but I just lack opportunity. I am asking you if you could pray for me and my children. I am going through so much I can't explain. I feel as if my head is going to burst; there is so much pressure in my life. Once I contemplated suicide and I nearly tried it, but I remembered my children. When I held that knife, all I could see was my two children's eyes. Please pray for me. I am feeling overwhelmed.

R.G.

Gear R.G.,

I do understand what you are saying. I regret hearing that you were raped. You have not said whether you underwent therapy and if this matter was handled by the police. I hope the rape was reported, but even if you received therapy at the time of the rape, you need therapy now. So I want to suggest that you seek the help of a psychologist. I am willing to help you to see a psychologist, but you would need to give me permission to contact one on your behalf and to have him or her to meet with you for free. I am wondering if your first child is the result of the rape. One thing that is clear from your letter is that you are not a lazy person because you have tried very hard to support yourself and your children. But you are very unfortunate. You have suffered at the hands of thieves and you do not have family support. You haven't said anything about God in your life but I would like to introduce the Lord to you and I don't mention God because I am a preacher, but I believe that God can help you if you put your life in his hands. I know some people don't like to hear about God but believe me, you cannot fight life without the help of the Lord. While I am going to seek help for you, I want you to spend sometime reading your Bible and talking to God. Perhaps as we publish your letter there might be persons who are willing to assist you. I would suggest that you send me your cell number so that I could speak to you on the phone. You may try to contact me at 876-877-1009. I need to talk to you. In the meantime, my prayers are with you.

Pastor